Powerless But WILLING

I realize that by trusting and allowing God, awesome leadership and those I have sworn to serve, to guide me to some substantial victory over alcoholism and other forms of addiction (sin) I have been failing to address major flaws within myself. This is my prayer.

“I have fallen into the sin of gluttony which seems to be beyond my control and have not Incorporated my program correctly to deal with it father. I have failed in Step One with this. That is to acknowledge that I have been powerless over this sin. I have allowed aspects of my life to become unmanageable.

I believe in You, Your Love, and your power to restore me to sanity.

I continue to offer myself to You to build and do with me You WILL. Relieve me of the bonds of selfishness in all their subtleties and deceptions. Remove them so I can help others of your power and Your love and way of life.

Relieve me of myself resentment. I am flawed but my motives are generally good with your help.

Take away my fear. I subconsciously fear success in gray areas and seem to have developed a tendency to self-sabotage on some hidden level.

I have inventored the major relationships with the women in my life have seen how selfishness, to deceit, and unjustifiably arousing jealousy and suspicion have caused harm. I see that the one successful relationship I had was based more on what I could do for her, and less on what I could gain for myself in that relationship.

In forming a sane, sound idea of my future sex life, I saw that I may be cutout to avoid sexual intimacy with the opposite sex and pursue celibacy and the most joyous forms of intimacy with my creator. In that, I have become a bit spoiled.

My Creator I'm now willing that You should have all of me, good and bad. I pray now that you remove from me every defect that stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows. But before I get started on that, I pray for Willingness. A real Willingness to have these things removed. I now pray that you remove from me my gluttonous tendencies with food. And also using it as a reassurance pertaining to the fear of potential intimacy with the opposite sex.

I see where I have been UNWILLING, and I'm now WILLING to set these matters straight, to the best of my ability, through You and Your WILL.

I pray that you direct my thinking father. You gave us brains to use and I need my thought life placed on a higher plane through your love and mercy for me. Allow me to not jump to absurd extremes and never to pray for my own selfish ends. But to pray more for where others will be helped. And of course I pray that Your WILL (not mine) prevail in all of these things. Father, Son, Holy Spirit, forever and ever Amen